Today was my last day as a student at UWP. Technically graduation isn't until Saturday, but I'm not walking so I'm considering this the end :) I'm in my room right now (which is pretty bare since I'm completely moving out tomorrow), listening to Mumford and Sons with candles lit...it's a pretty great atmosphere if I do say so myself. I think everything just hit me a little bit tonight. I am done with my undergraduate degree, I'm leaving for Uganda in 18 days, and I don't know what I'll be doing when I get back. There are so many transitions/changes happening at once; it's exciting, stressful, and scary all at the same time.
Another thing that's been on my mind is home crappy I am at "good byes"...and I'll be saying a lot of them soon. I want to tell all my profs how amazing they are and how much I've learned from them. I want to tell all of my friends here at Point how much I'll miss them and how much they've all taught me in some way or another. I want to tell my high school friends how much I love them, and LOVE that we've stayed in contact these past 4 years. I want to tell my family how much they mean to me and how thankful I am for them.
I don't like good-byes, mainly because I don't like crying in front of people, and with good-byes it's pretty much guaranteed there will be tears at some point...especially with some of my family and friends...you know who you are :) I've been so incredibly blessed in so many areas of my life, honestly in all areas of my life. It's going to be hard leaving all these blessings and going to a place where people have been given such a different life than me; I'm sure it'll make me aware of blessings I can't even think of now. It's going to be hard saying good-bye to some people and not knowing when the next time I see them will be; it'll be even harder knowing I won't see some of them ever again.
18 days and I'll be in Uganda...and only $200 more left to suport raise. Wow, three months ago I started raising support, and I had no idea what to expect, but I definitely wasn't expecting what I got. I'm actually going to Uganda...to help little African babies. A dream I've had for over a decade is going to come true in 18 days. I (and my life) am most likely going to change in 18 days...which is exciting and scary in and of itself. The next season of my life is already starting...I love adventures, and I'm so excited for this one :)
Obviously I am one of the criers you mentioned I am here now with eyes full of tears. I only had one melt down this weekend. ( Thanks Visine for being there and ready with a hug) I am sure the next 14 days I will have many and for the 3 months after that. I am so scared and proud all at the same time. Love ya
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